I have been gone for so long! I have been homeless since my parents officially kicked me and Cesar out on the streets. They had also turned my phone off, I wasn't sure why they did that until I called my mom about it. She had told me that Cesar had ran the phone bill up AGAIN! He wont stop calling girls in Mexico or wherever the hell is calling them at. I am so pissed about this. He wont stop calling them! I haven't stopped crying since my mom told me he had been calling her again.
We have been living with his cousin Ortencio, which I HATE living there! None of them speak English and I obviously don't speak enough Spanish in order to have a conversation with any of them. I felt so alone until last night when I bursted into tears over the fact of hating that I was living in a roach infested house. Yesterday they even had a wild bird fly into the house. You know a house is unclean when rodents infest the surround areas. I tried to restart their Direct TV box but when I opened the back part ROACHES flowed out of it as if it was a river of roaches which is so disgusting. I am a somewhat clean freak, in the senses that bugs are a definite no no when it comes my home. I hate bugs and rodents, they are so ewww!
Oh this is a piece of my cute luggage.
This was the video I took Sunday, May 2nd, 2010!
Yes today is Cesar's 30th birthday. I am very angry with him but maybe I shouldn't mention anything to him because no one wants bad news on their birthday. I am on the borderline of leaving Cesar and never talking to him again. Anyways back to his birthday. Today is also Cinco De Mayo! Which is rather weird to meet, and actually date a guy that has his birthday on a huge Mexican holiday especially when hes from Mexico. I'm not really sure how to celebrate his birthday since I still don't have a job and I really wanted to do something special for him since 30 is one of the big birthdays. Its a shame that he has to work on his birthday, I'm sure hes not working too hard since most of the calls he had made to that slut were during the day while he was "working". Sorry that I keep going back to that subject its just really bothering me right now. I'm sure its normal to be angry when someone is cheating on you, well calling other girls/boys or whatever and spending more time talking to them than they had ever talked to you. He knows what he did was wrong but he is far from sorry. I don't think he cares at all that he hurts me emotionally.
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