So Angry

I hate Cesar! I found out that hes been calling girls in Mexico. I confronted him about it and admitted to doing so and said that he only called them because he was bored. In my opinion that isn't a good reason. Most girls would dump a guy that called other girls but I'm trying to learn not to be so jealous. I mean those girls are all the way in Mexico and I'm here so I have the upper hand. But I also do have the right to cry about it. I hate crying and I never use to cry before I started dating. Men have changed me for the bad. Also I have been sick this weekend and today. I felt horrible yesterday, I couldn't even WALK! I had overdosed on my insilin in order to try to kill myself but all it did was make my entire body hurt... it even hurt to pee! Anyways I'm going into too many details and you probablly don't really care about it.