Kitty Love

I love my cats! Everyone believes that I will grow up to be a cat lady. The kind of lady that just lives with cats and talks to them as if they can talk back like normal humans. But my cats are special to me because both of them are unique in their own way. I have the original Garfield and the sassy Jane. I want to tell you about both of them and experiences some bad some good that I have had with them.

Well I guess I should start of by saying that if you have ever seen the movie Garfield, read the cartoons, or seen the t.v. show you will know exactly why I would name him Garfield. First off he looks like the original except not a cartoon. He eats just like him, as in he eats everything and anything! He normally is lazy but he plays sometimes, hates dogs but loves to mess with them. He chases his tail kinda like what a dog does which is rather weird. He is open to be petted by anyone including strangers. He hates when I have a boyfriend no matter who they are because I guess he gets jealous or something. His hobbies are eating, sleeping, chasing his tail, and playing with stuff he isn't suppose to play with. I guess I should tell you how I got him. Four years ago he showed up on our door step out of no where in the night. My mom fell in love with him even though my dad said that I couldn't have another cat but he came around eventually. He does have his moods though where he gets angry but it takes awhile and he does warn you before he strikes. Sometimes he dosen't mean to hurt you he is just playing but it makes people mad when he hurts them.

She is my prissy kitty. She thinks she owns the house and dosen't like Garfield, AT ALL! She pretty much is a whore because she loves men and I personally think she tries to take other girls men away especially mine, but unfortunetly for her my man only likes human ladies =) Well anyways she whines alot especially when she wants out or in and she can never make up her mind which she wants and always comes to my window in the middle of the night while I'm trying to sleep. Unlike Garfield she is not a people cat. She hides when people come over that she dosen't know. It took her three months for her to get use to Cesar. Now its as if shes in love with him and shes always following him around like a lost puppy. Her hobbies include, sleeping, eating, playing outside, having promiscious sex with several boy cats, and beating up on Garfield. The story behind finding her is that when my first cat, Amy passed away my dad told me that I could have one kitten. My friend Kaylee and I were playing outside in my backyard and she heard meowing from my playhouse and she went in there and found 8 kittens. I decided to keep Jane and she was suppose to keep a cat that I later on named Shanana but her mother wouldn't let her keep the cat. So we went back to my house and the kittens mother had left with the other kittens so I was stuck with Jane and Shanana. Unfortunetly Shanana ran away to another family after Garfield came along.

Mommy of the NEVER!

My cousins and aunts seem to always put me in charge of their kids because they aren't responsible enough to take care of them their selves. I mean I love taking care of them its just they have alot of problems especially Savannah. I love all of my cousins equally and they love me back the only problem is that they hate Cesar!

I guess I should start with the biggest trouble maker of them all. She is currently 13 years old in 7th grade in middle school and already have had more boyfriends than me. Her boyfriend is sexually active and has two children of his own and he is 16 years old. Her mother is not aware of this and I am suppose to keep it a secret. I guess I should pray that she dosen't see this blog because she would be shocked at the stuff that I am about to write about her. Savannah's mother is a prostitute and does pills, crack, and other things that we don't know about yet. Her dad lives with my grandparents and dosen't have a job and he is a crack/meth head. So I guess growing up around all that would make her the way she is. I can't take her anywhere without getting me in trouble in some way. The trunk incident that happened two years ago, almost got be in jail because her and her cousin decided to get into the trunk of my car while I was driving and open it to wave at people which is really dangerous. The other thing is I can't take her shopping or to just look around because her purse and pockets will be filled of stolen goods that she dosen't even like/want she just takes it because she can. So there are many reasons why I don't want her to be around but I do still love her since I pretty much raised her and she calls me anytime theres a problem at her house.

Aubrianna and Jackielynn, such a handfull when they are together that its nearly impossible for me to keep them by myself. My parents always have to step in because they cause so many problems. They are the sisters to beware! They always are getting into something. My parents told me to put up things that I don't want them to play with, but that dosen't make a difference since they go through everyones stuff! Nothing is a secret in this house. The only real big problem I have with them is the destruction of my property. They knock stuff off of all my walls, break things that are charished to me including things that my real mom gave to me. The biggest trouble maker out of these two is of course the youngest, the one that wants to be in charge but shes too small and young so she takes it out into hitting people including her 9 month pregnant mother that she punched in the stomach when she found out she couldn't come over. She could have really hurt her mother and the baby and caused mental and physical problems with the baby. But as I said before I do love these girls and I like them being around sometime but sometimes I just don't feel like being around them or anyone for that matter.

Audios!

He, yet again has to leave back to Birmingham for work. He will be gone all week again. I hate when I don't get to see him all week. He told me that next week that I could stay in a hotel room with him in Birmingham but I dont know if I want to just sit in a hotel room all day waiting for him to get off work. But on the other hand I would get to sleep with him and that would be wonderful because its hard for me to sleep alone now. Oh yeah we took some pictures the other day that I'm going to post on here if you want to see them! Of course you do! Here ya go!

Scrapbooking is fun!

Turning Latina!

Cesar took me out today! We went to some mexican restraunt only known to mexicans... its like a rave... only known to ravers lol. Anyways back to the subject... he ordered us both tacos like we always order and I got the sauce I normally get plus I also got habanero sauce which is the spiciest sauce know to man. When I first had it which happened to be on our first date it made my mouth burn so badly that I had to drink tons of water afterwards, but now its like it dosen't bother me at all! I ate lots of it and it was nothing to it. Well after we ate and talked for a few hours he took me to see the movie that I have been wanting to see. He took me to see 'Cop Out'! It was the perfect movie for couples that have one american and one hispanic. Of course most of the movie is in english since this is the United States but there are alot of parts where there is spanish since the movie is based upon the capture of a mexican drug bust. Also he loves action movies and I prefer comedies and it has an equal amount of both so it was totally perfect and we both enjoyed it. I haven't been this happy in awhile and I'm glad that I'm with him. He is my perfection.

I'm So Stupid!

I actually thought about leaving Cesar after seeing the hickie for some guy that I barely know. Well I've known him long enough to make out with him while Cesar was out of town since I knew Cesar was going to cheat. Anyways, I texted him last night telling him how I thought I felt about him saying they I was falling in love with him which I knew I wasn't I just told him that to see what he would say. To my suprise I would have never guessed what came next. He texted me back telling me that he would never date me that he just wanted blow jobs and sex and thats totally not cool! It makes me mad that he tried to use me. He actually wanted me to help him get a job through my parents which is asking alot since they have the hook ups that he so desired. I just need to stick with Cesar and stop fucking around literally. I hate that I did that to him and I wish I never made that mistake because it was so stupid! I always do something to mess up my relationships and I don't want to ever do it again. I would hope that he wouldn't hurt me ever again either.

Oh My!

Okay so I went to go pick him up from where he said he was and like always I had to wait half an hour so he could drink enough to smell like puke and want to kiss me... totally eww. So once he got in the car he was all lovey for like a minute (seriously) and then it went to being all about him and how much he suffered through not having a blanket. Poor baby... its like get over yourself! I thought once he came back he would be more like "oh baby i've missed you so much your like the rose in my life" or some kinda shit like that but no! Well anyways back to the wow factor... we were in the kitchen and I noticed after I had kissed him a mark on his neck... he has a fucking hickie! WTF! I asked him about it and he got all offensive.... like any guilty person would and told me to drop it. But seriously if this happened to you would you just drop it?

Guilty Without Charged

No, I'm not talking about doing anything illegal (well it should be). I cheated on my fiance! I feel soooooo horrible! I think I should get like the death penalty or something. I just hate the way he treats me sometimes and Steven is just so sweet and he makes me feel special. When I say cheated I mean I only kissed him but I've done other stuff in the past when I thought Cesar cheated on me. I do realise that two wrongs do not make a right. It actually makes everything worse. I don't want to tell Cesar because I know that it will be over if I ever did tell him but keeping something this huge from him could have its downs aswell. I will never do it again and I know that I wont. I just want everything to be like when we first started dating without the him still seeing his ex long distance girlfriend. I guess I just have all this built up aggression against him since I always think hes going to cheat on me since he has done it before. Most girls would dump a guy when they first cheat but I guess I'm stupid or something. I love him to death and yes I know most of you are like "If you love someone you wouldn't cheat on them" but you have no idea what its like until your in the situation. I just don't know what to do for now. Maybe we are even now? Also I know that he did cheat on me while he was in Birmingham and I'm talking fucking around not just kissing.

Updating My Life

So I've been dating this guy named Cesar since July 10th, 2009. We have gotten along so far, but of course like any couple we have our ups and downs. Back in November he was evicted from his apartment and I thought of the great idea of him moving in with me and my parents which turned out to be hell. My parents loved him when he first moved in now they just think of him as a leech. I love him more than ever even though we fight more than ever. He is currently working in Birmingham since hes an illegal mexican and his jobs are limited. He is a professional roofer and is always looking for a new job. I on the other hand am unemployed which drives my parents crazy. I am actively looking for a job but in the economy today it is hell looking for a job. I know everyone blames the economy for everything but it seems true. I am going to try hard to update this blog as much as possible. I have had tons of blogs in the past that I just totally forgot about. Anyways I guess just wait til my next post.